“My Heartache-free Love”

Just like a typical girl, she knows what a crush is…

Just like a normal human, she knows what love is; she even wants more for it though she experiences much of it with her family and friends. But really, one time in her life, she was searching for more, and far more…perhaps an exciting kind of love. And in her quest, she experienced life’s test or shall I say, love’s tests…

As the eldest among five siblings, she has been brought up by her parents with extra care; more attention is given to her. They have high regard about her studies. They see in her as the hope of their family. They keep on instilling in her the value of education. They keep on reminding her that love can wait. At the back of her mind, she once replied, “Yes, love can wait, but I can’t. Actually, she was just putting herself on at that moment, maybe tired and sick of hearing those words.

Well, she understands them. She respects and loves them with all her heart that she cannot afford to disobey them. In fact, never did she experience going to movie; never she have time discoing all night; never did she get involved in a relationship. She admits at first it was out of fear, but later she realized that she obeys them because they are right and it’s for her own sake.

But with all the pressures in life, she was tempted to disobey them especially when the boys were just waiting for her “Yes.” Indeed, she was able to say “Yes.”, but the faces of her family and her future made her realize how a big “NO” her “Yes” was. Oh, if only you could see how disappointed the boy was after a few seconds. Yes, seconds…She was so sorry for him, but life is more than boys. And a working scholar herself should be aware of that. With a hard time to study and pressures from the work that come along the way, who needs boys by the way?

“Life is more than boys”. ..

Love happens in a time and place where one least expects it.

She didn’t know how almost everyone called it love.

Two years ago, she met a man who had a face just exactly with her dream boy. He may not be as cute as Ryan Gosling but for her he was the cutest man alive. The firs time his eyes met hers, she was immediately love struck. It was as if Cupid’s arrow hit her. They were in the same place attending a meeting for an organization in school, which the name she couldn’t mention simply because she preferred not to give another clue of his identity.

After the meeting and the rest of the day, she was really amazed by how she managed everything. She felt good. She didn’t know exactly the reason then but people around her kept on telling, “Oh girl you are in love. Your eyes speak it so.” She was speechless, and she recalled what had happened…


Was she really love struck to the man whom she had a brief eye contact with during the meeting? Answers were not clear not until another day came for their second encounter. You know the funny feeling in your stomach when you catch a glimpse of your special someone? She felt it on that day, and for the second time around their eyes glued to one another; time seemed so tired of running. And what really made her turn red was when he sincerely smiled at her and said ‘Hi.” She didn’t know what to do until one friend of hers called her. She didn’t know if she should be angry to her for interrupting that wonderful moment or be thankful for saving her from a near embarrassment.

The next day and the following days were great except for January 10, 2004. A close friend told her that the man was in a happy relationship with another girl. Oh, really a tough pill to swallow! She couldn’t help her tears from falling. She was totally hurt. “For all the smiles I have given, for all the glimpses I have thrown this is what I get.” she said to herself.

She experienced for the first time what they called heartache. Heartache she only seemed to read in romance novels.

That heartache really hurt her hard. She cried so hard feeling it’s the end of the world. Though she was black then, she still managed to call God to enlighten her mind. And then she realized how she wasted her time for someone who knew nothing about her feelings.

It is really true that love happens when you are not expecting it, but it is also very true that heartache comes when you are not ready. And if the same case will happen to you, bear in mind that though heartache is cruel, it’s not the end of the world. There is still room for another love to grow for the right man in the right time and place. After all, we are here in school primarily to study.

This experience taught her two very important things in life. One is, one should not expect that when you give love, it will return back to you. I mean, don’t expect for someone to love you the same way you love him. The other is, there is someone who truly loves you beyond your comprehension, who loves you so much that nobody on earth can surpass. Nothing or no one can stop him from loving you. It’s Him, Jesus Christ. He even died for you. And she is happy to say that she loves Him, and who will expect heartache from this kind of love? Oh, what a safe heart she has!